So, I, Makaela, am graduating in just a few short months. That is crazy. To imagine I'm about to leave and go off on my own into the great unknown. That is also quite scary, especially for someone like me. I don't like suprises, I like to know what is coming up. Another thing I don't like is talking to my parents about anything. I don't have a close relationship with them and it's always awkward talking them.
My first problem is this. What to do about college. I had been lazy at the beginning of the year and never bothered with filling out applications. Mostly because family, friends, and school counselors kept telling me I would never make it and I have no future. So I had that engraned in my mind and proved them right. So now I'm concidering going to a junior college first and take online classes and get a full time job. Or, I can take a semester off and get a job then apply for colleges for the Spring of 2013.
My second problem is that I want to live on my own, out of the Temecula area and move to Long Beach. I really like it out there. I feel like thats where I belong. But, I'm worried. How do I tell my parents I want to move out with out them getting upset and what not? What if I procrastinate on getting a place to stay, what if I can't find a job out there? What if I don't ever even get to college? Then I'll never become an ER Nurse. What if I just struggle living on my own? I can't come back to live with my parents again. I just can't. It's miserable.
My third issue is a boy. We had been dating, on and off, for about a year and a half. But we had never seen each other while dating because he lives in Long Beach, which is 1 hour, 22 minutes away from my house now. He is 2 years older than I am. I was always really difficult to date. He said I was too selfish, controlling, and argumentative. Which was true. I wish it wasnt, but he recently broke up with me again for good. Saying that he wants someone he can hold and see everyday. Someone that acts like a mature woman. Which clearly wasn't me at that time. I think he is making a huge mistake by doing this. He was my best friend, and now all what he is doing is pushing me away. Which hurts more than anything in the world. I would do anything to get him back, forever. To prove to him I have grown up so much and I'm just not the same little girl he used to know. I'm the exact person he wants, he just doesn't see it. Now he's too stubborn to see it. He's afraid I'm actually right for once and that he does really love me. I just don't know what to do anymore. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. (:
~Mickie~ <3
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Have you ever wondered...
Hello everyone. I just wanted to talk about some things I have been thinking about lately. Have you ever wondered why you were here? Or what your supposed to do with your life? Were all here for a reason. We just have to figure it out. Everything happens for a reason. Everyday is another day to change, another day to love, to be someone, to accomplish something. You can't change what happened yesterday, but you can change what happens tomorrow.
Friday, December 30, 2011
Quotes and sayings
Hey everyone, I, Makaela, thought some of these quotes that I have found helpful in my life, might come in handy in yours too. Some are about love and relationships, others are just about life in general and so forth. (:
~"Laugh your heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the moment, ignore the pain. Live, Laugh, Love. Forgive and forget. Life's too short to be living with regrets."
~"Don't worry about the people in your past. There's a reason they didn't make it to the future."
~"You never know how strong you are...Until being strong is the only choice you have."
~"Don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you."
~"Move on. It's just a chapter in the past. But don't close the book, just turn the page."
~"Behind every beautiful girl, theres a dumbass guy who did her wrong and made her strong."
~"Every story has an ending, but in life, every end is just a new beginning."
~"If you really love something, set it free. If it comes back, its yours. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be."
~"I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they were right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
~"Sometimes you just have to smile, pretend everything's okay, hold back the tears and just walk away."
~"Don't let someone become a priority in your life when you are just an option in theirs."
~"I may not get to see you as often as I like, I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart, i truly know you're the one I love and I can't let you go."
~"Be strong now because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it wont rain forever."
~"Everyone says that love hurts, but thats not true. Lonliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuses those with love, but in reality, Love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again."
~"If you're not ready for someone at their worst, you're not ready for them at their best."
~"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."
~"Everyone sees who I appear to be, but only a few know the real me. You can only see what I choose to show, theres so much more you just don't know."
~"When I saw you, I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew." -William Shakespeare
~"When I tell you I love you, I don't say it out of habit or to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me."
~"Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about."
~"We want happiness, we don't want pain, but how can you make a rainbow without a little rain?"
~"She's got a smile on her face, a 'screw you' attitude, because from this day on, she's living for herself."
~"Yes, I've made mistakes. Life didn't come with instructions."
~"Distance never separates two hearts that really care."
~"You've gotta stand up for something or else you'll fall for anything."
Please comment! Thanks!
~"Laugh your heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the moment, ignore the pain. Live, Laugh, Love. Forgive and forget. Life's too short to be living with regrets."
~"Don't worry about the people in your past. There's a reason they didn't make it to the future."
~"You never know how strong you are...Until being strong is the only choice you have."
~"Don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you."
~"Move on. It's just a chapter in the past. But don't close the book, just turn the page."
~"Behind every beautiful girl, theres a dumbass guy who did her wrong and made her strong."
~"Every story has an ending, but in life, every end is just a new beginning."
~"If you really love something, set it free. If it comes back, its yours. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be."
~"I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they were right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
~"Sometimes you just have to smile, pretend everything's okay, hold back the tears and just walk away."
~"Don't let someone become a priority in your life when you are just an option in theirs."
~"I may not get to see you as often as I like, I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart, i truly know you're the one I love and I can't let you go."
~"Be strong now because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it wont rain forever."
~"Everyone says that love hurts, but thats not true. Lonliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuses those with love, but in reality, Love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes us feel wonderful again."
~"If you're not ready for someone at their worst, you're not ready for them at their best."
~"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."
~"Everyone sees who I appear to be, but only a few know the real me. You can only see what I choose to show, theres so much more you just don't know."
~"When I saw you, I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew." -William Shakespeare
~"When I tell you I love you, I don't say it out of habit or to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me."
~"Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about."
~"We want happiness, we don't want pain, but how can you make a rainbow without a little rain?"
~"She's got a smile on her face, a 'screw you' attitude, because from this day on, she's living for herself."
~"Yes, I've made mistakes. Life didn't come with instructions."
~"Distance never separates two hearts that really care."
~"You've gotta stand up for something or else you'll fall for anything."
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Thursday, December 29, 2011
Getting to know us.
Hey guys. And girls. Our names are Cianna Mariah Ellena Pecora and Makaela Renee Latimer. I (Cianna) am 16 years old. Makaela is 17. We are from California. We met in 5th and 6th grade and ever since then we've been best friends. We've been through literally everything together. We made this blog because well we wanted to but we wanted to talk about how hard life can be and love and relationships and that they're not easy but you just have to live through it and hopefully come out alive. Makaela and I have been through a lot of different experiences and we thought it would be good to share them with you and tell us what we learned from them and hopefully you'll learn from them too. I hope you like our blog. (:
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